Today I started my new work schedule, which is really my old schedule, for the most part. I don't know how full-time working mommies do it and keep sane. I went back to work full-time in December, after a few years of 32 hours per week. I just can't get it together! Our company merged, so the new company policy is to work 35 hours per week to keep benefits, so that's what I'm going to do. Since Dan works a contract, we get our benefits thru my job. I know that doesn't seem like much, but being able to log some hours from home will be awesome.
Well, the past few months, I've been a bitchy, stressed out mess at home and at work. My house is a complete disaster. I can't keep up with laundry, can't volunteer for much at Zoe's school, can't even have lunch with her. By the time I got home from work, I was physically and mentally exhausted. I actually like to cook, but just didn't feel like doing that or much of anything. I would get up very early and try to do house stuff before getting Zoe ready for school, then rush off to work. After work, I would rush home to meet the school bus and take Zoe to whatever activity scheduled for that day. It really felt like I was doing everything I did at home before, plus working 40 hours, with little or no help.
So, I really hope I have made the right decision. Tomorrow will be a "home" day, and I am actually looking forward to cleaning, straightening and getting my house in order. I will log in remotely to work. I was so much happier before, when I had this schedule. I hope I can find that happiness again. Of course, I'm totally stressed out now and have convinced myself that someone will complain. I never had complaints in the past, but I still worry. Jobs are scarce out there and I'd probably never find a job that allowed me to have a flexible schedule. So, hopefully all the years I've put in and work I've done will keep things going smoothly. Fingers & toes crossed.