I have officially been unemployed for two days. (Eek!) I’m still a little in shock, but I can already see some good from being around more. It also feels like I jumped without a parachute or safety net and I’m still falling (or plummeting) towards the ground. It was a tough decision to make. Dan is behind me 100%. But, I wonder what happens when I finally hit the ground? I’ve done a lot of praying and cutting back on expenses. I’ve got the support of friends and family, which is awesome. But, I still have a tiny nagging bit of worry. (Probably normal?)
I have to admit, I do feel less stressed. I’m surprised I’m not my usual radiating ball of stress over it all. Perhaps it is because I feel good about the decision. As soon as the decision was made, I felt like a weight had been lifted. Yes, I’m very scared, very very scared. I believe this new chapter in my life is part of a plan, a plan I really have no control over. I don’t know what the outcome will be, or how I will handle things. But, I am going to try to keep an open mind and look for the positives. I’ve already seen some positives!
- Zoë and I actually sit down for healthy breakfasts!
- Prudy snuggles with me! (I swear the dog used to hate me.)
- We have laughter in the house and things seem much more relaxed!
- Dan has commented multiple times that I seem very happy!
I know there are more examples. I plan to write them down as I think of them, so this list will most likely expand. I hope to find a part time job, a job with a flexible schedule or even a telecommuting job for extra income. I feel like I’ve been neglecting my family for so long and Zoe will only be little once. I don’t want to miss anything.
Prudy - The ultimate in “No Worries”!
